The Book of Awakening. Day 13

The Book of Awakening. Day 13
January 13, 2011
Why We Need Each Other

The book quoted a haiku about a blind boy marveling at the cherry blossoms with his mother pointing out the trees; both appreciating them equally but in different ways. To me, this points out that we are all blind in our own ways.

In my life I can be and have been blind to many things. I have gotten caught up with myself, our son and our home that I became blind to the things that made our home: our love. We no longer saw things the same way, we no longer saw each other same. Thankfully and gratefully we see things with a similar set of eyes but it has been a struggle... A therapy or a rehab of sorts training us to see again, to be again.

It should never be that the possible loss of the other is what makes you see, that brings you back from the dark, but like many others before us and for more to come, that is what it took.

If I ever do become blind again my hope is that my love will be the one who will point out the cherry blossoms.

Sincerely,
~Cher

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The Book of Awakening. Day 12

The Book of Awakening. Day 12
January 12, 2011
Seeing into Darkness

Fear of the dark need not be confronted in one day. Entering into a dark is not simple for fear does hold us back. But it is okay to stand by the threshold until you are comfortable there and it is okay to remain still until our eyes get accustomed to the dark. We do things when we are strong enough. Sometimes strength takes time.

I am working on time.

Sincerely,
~Cher

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The Book of Awakening. Day 11

The Book of Awakening. Day 11
January 11, 2011
Ted Shawn

Ted Shawn was studying divinity when he was struck with polio (Nepo, M. 2000). While suffering with the full use of his legs, Ted heard a voice that he should dance (Nepo). Ted dropped out if divinity school and enrolled in dance (Nepo). Through dance he regained the full use of his legs and became closer to God because dance is theology expressed in movement (Nepo).

I love to dance. I bop up and down on the train in the mornings, I usually always have a song in my head and I know that is my second mind rejoicing in song.

Sincerely,
~Cher

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The Book of Awakening. Day 10

The Book of Awakening. Day 10
January 10, 2011
Akiba

Nepo (2000) excerpted from the Talmud: upon his deathbed Akiba cried to his rabbi upset because he had not lived a life like Moses. The rabbi responded in saying that Akiba's sin was not that he fell short of Moses's life but not being Akiba and living the life he was given

We spend a lot of time as humans trying to be like those we are not... We aspire to be people we are not hence working against God basically telling him that His work to make us was not good enough. What a slap in the face!

I cannot say that I aspire to be someone I am not but then I have not fully looked at myself yet. However, I wear my hair how it was made, curly. I don't chemically straighten it although I do work at making it more manageable. I waited, listened and heeded the path I was supposed to take and not my mother's path or the path she wished I would take. I chose this life because God put it in my heart, in my mind and finally laid it out for me.

I am not Moses. I am not Akiba. I am me and through this, trying to be the best me possible.

I thank you for your support and guidance.

Sincerely,
~Cher

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The Book of Awakening. Day 9

The Book of Awakening. Day 9
January 9, 2011
Life in the Tank

Life in the tank. Area we in a tank? Is our life our own captivity?

This is way too deep for just one day. I don't have it in me right now.

Sincerely,
~Cher

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The Book of Awakening. Day 8

The Book of Awakening. Day 8
January 8, 2011
Feeding Your Heart

The blind, never having seen their face instinctively know where their mouth is. However bad the night may seem, the day always brings light.

If one takes time to really think and consider, the heart always knows the answer to everything. We always know the answer is. It is usual, however, that the answer is hard to deal with.

There are times that I hate knowing the answer, but then there it is. I know that right now, I have to clean house (house of finance, house of education, house of home, house of self) and for every home, there are problems and there are answers some tough, some easy, but all solvable.

Sincerely,
~Cher

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The Book of Awakening. Day 7

The Book of Awakening. Day 7
January 7, 2011
We Must Take Turns

A relationship is give and take. While one is working on themselves inwardly the other must work on external aspects - the things that allow the other to work on themselves without having to worry about the garbage, the dishes, the children, etc.

"We must take turns: diving into all there is and counting the time." (Nepo, M. 2000).

Today, I have realized that in reality going on to receive my EMBA is a little bit selfish since this is now my 4th year in school and I am still working on myself and plan to add an additional year with a master's in business administration. The thing is, that I really think that God is not finished with me yet and has not started in Chris. Maybe I am not paying attention and God has started talking to Chris but he remains patient and silent about his path. I am not sure which it is.

I am not finished and as an individual I need this higher learning degree and possibly even a black belt (Six Sigma) for me to really be happy with me and professional growth. I don't know. What I do know is that I did have a real awakening today and I have to talk to Chris and meditate on giving more to him and allowing him to spiritually take more and allowing his walk to continue...

The more I think of it, I don't particularly care for this awakening stuff!

Sincerely,
~Cher

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